November 8th – Baby Sleeps

1999  Slept right through until 8 o’clock.  In mums good books now – until mum asked me to go to the toilet 5 times but I had better things to do (even though mum says I was “messing around” – what does she know?) and ended up wetting myself.  This continued throughout most of the day at Edons.  I chose Alphabites, beans and ‘ish ‘ingers for tea and ate it all up.  Mummy and I played cake ladies, and then ice cream and sweet ladies.  I had a bath and when mum was drying me she told me she was a tired baby.  Well I put her straight – she’s “not a baby”.  She then asked me what she was then.  Surely she should know the answer at her age!  I told her anyway by saying “you little girl”.  Why she found this funny I don’t know.

2019: Oh the young days before political correctness. It would probably be cake, ice-cream and sweets persons nowadays! I have worn different hats today too but not had as much fun. Started labouring at 6 this morning, then went on to do my insurance job this afternoon and then drove Zof and her brother and sister to Coventry to see her Nan and Grandad. Now shattered. Think I will probably sleep straight through tonight and even later than  8am!

#children #parents #childminders #toilettraining #play #work #building #insurance #driving

July 28th – Vocalising Celebrations

1999   Impressed mum as I came into her room this morning and said “can I have” but needed help with the “a drink please” bit.  Mum thought I was very clever and said it was far nicer than the “dink” I usually holler in her ear.  That’s as may be, but it’s much harder work if you ask me.  I mean, why use all those words when you can get the same result just using one?  Adults!  I’ll never understand them.  Found the camera on the lounge floor this morning and   took several photos of the telly, the carpet, the curtain, my foot etc.  Should look good when the films developed (nice surprise for mum anyhow). Went to Edons and then Nanny’s today.  The sun was shining and I played in the garden all day. Nanny gave me a new shirt from Uncle Teddy – a Southend United one!   I was very tired tonight which resulted in tantrums; largely because mummy pulled the plug out of the bath just because I slapped her!  I was back home and in bed by seven and asleep two minutes later.

2019: Long drive back from Wales to Beccles today, made worse by an hour and a half jam on the A14. Legs are pretty wobbly from yesterdays run but I’m happy I did the run and am also celebrating one year with Zof today! She has stuck by me (even holding my hand in hospital after surgery and looking after me when I was discharged at the beginning of July when we were just friends). She has inspired me, encouraged me, helped me,  filled me with confidence and let me be me. Looking forwards to many more years together.

#toddlers #childhood #adulthood #vocabulary #childtalk #photography #sunshine #footbal #southendutd #tantrums  #Beccles #Wales #Trafficjams #girlfriend #friends #crohns #hemicolectomy #mentalhealth

April 5th – Mischievous Days

1999: Up at 7.00, no prizes for guessing where mum was.  Whilst she was asleep I pooed my nappy and decided to take it off, because that’s what she usually does.  Mum awoke to find marks all over my bed, my carpet and her bed.  Oops!  I had to have a bath and get clean and mum had loads of washing to do. We went to Asda and bought two packed lunches and set off for Danbury lakes.  We walked around and then put a rug on the grass to eat, but we both ended up with wet bums, as the grass was so wet that it soaked through the rug.  We fed the ducks but they weren’t interested so the fish ate the bread instead.  We played ball, I threw it backward over my head, and it rolled down the slope and now the ducks are playing with it!  We went for another walk and I climbed some trees.  Mum got a bit cross though because I kept throwing stones, and she got even crosser when one hit a young boy on the head. Oh dear.  Mum was very apologetic and luckily his mummy was very understanding and forgiving.  Not so with my mum though – we had to go home. 

2019: Bit of a crappy day (literally). Back and shoulder hurting from work. Popped round to mums and ran straight in to the loo. Crohn’s has really flared – suggestions from mum to drink plenty of alcohol, avoid fried and spiced food and alcohol. Good luck with that one – we’ve got a house warming party tomorrow night. Picked up my car from mums after taping the wing mirror back on (I knocked it off after three days of having it – not happy – cant afford to get I fixed so just keep strapping it up)

#sleep #potty training #mess #mischief #toddlers #growing up #crohns #IBD #party #cars #alcohol #food

 

 

 

March 10th Adults – hinderance and help

1999:  Mum tried to fob me off this morning by putting me in her bed, with my milk, to drink alone but I had other ideas.  I looked at her really really sweetly, patted the bed beside me and said “ Mum”.  It worked like a charm and she obliged (for a whole 5 minutes). Went to Edons and when mum picked me up tonight she bought me a packet of crisps and I was on my best behaviour getting into the car extremely nicely, with no fuss.  We called in to see Nanny and Pa, I think it was because I kept saying “Nan, Nan, Nan” for the first 3 minutes of the journey.  We ended up staying for tea and Uncle Eddy called in as well.  I’m doing well for attention this week.  Nan has bought me a new stool, which I was chuffed with, until Pa and Mummy tried to confuse me.  I mean I knew it was a stool, it was perfectly obvious to me, but they thought it was a table.  What planet are they on?  You know us kids would learn a lot faster if we weren’t hindered by adults.

2019: Haven’t managed to get back to rugby but went to watch U11 rugby today at Wymondham and then drove to Acle to meet mum who brought my paperwork half way. Mum to the rescue again! She cant complain too much as I take after her!

#toddlers #growingup

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March 2nd -The Problem with Communication

1999: When I got up I was full of beans and I got mum to join in my antics too (even though we were running late).  I found the headphones for mum’s walkman and sang into the connector piece (as usual) and today I did it on my very own stage – mum’s flat packed wardrobes which are on the floor waiting to be put up.  I wish she’d hurry up and do it, my room’s still full of all her clothes (and I thought I had a lot!) Told mummy that I’d had a good day at Edons but I refused to put my shoes and socks on tonight so mum had to carry me to the new, shiny red car.  I love it!  Mum’s bought a smelly for it, but I didn’t care for that much, it smelt far better than it tasted.  When we got home I found ice-lollies in the freezer which mum made me eat in the kitchen (I can’t think why).  The phone went tonight before, during and after tea – Dev, Eesa, Nan, Karen and Tracey!  Mum and I cuddled on the settee but she put me to bed at 7.45 as she thought I was tired and miserable.  I thought I’d been trying to communicate!  I was asleep within 10 minutes – perhaps she was right, but I won’t tell she knows best.

2019:  Communication’s not my best thing currently. Low mood and arguments. Got an email to advise I did not get short listed for mental health support worker role I applied for –  but at least they bothered to email me.  My grumpiness when tired and hungry has continued into adult life but not working definitely makes everything 10 times worse. Self esteem is taking  nose dive as is my Crohn’s

#depression #self-esteem #crohns #autoimmune #work #humour #growing up

 

March 1st – Cutting Teeth

1999: Spent the day at Edon’s until five when mum took me to Nan’s for tea.  I was really pleased as mum said we were going but I didn’t quite believe her until we rounded the corner of her road and then I got really excited shouting ‘Nan, Nan, Nan’.  Uncle Eddy and Pa were there too!  After 20 minutes mum disappeared.  Charming – more quality time!  She returned an hour later in a new shiny red car – I was very excited and had a little go in the driver’s seat. We went home in the NEW car, which is actually 3 years old, but it’s all ours!  I had a bath, complete with hair wash (I have managed to avoid it for a week now) and I wasn’t too impressed with Mother pouring all that water over my head.  Afterwards I found the lion cake and decided to demolish it.  Mum discovered another tooth coming = 10 at the bottom and eight on top.

2019:  Home alone today and tonight as Mum and Mark have gone to the theatre and Zof is out with friends. Low, low, low day – mum always knows – she text me to check I was in a good place before buggering off out as she put it. I’m ok. Well ok to be left on my own. She rang and faced timed me a couple of times too. I sometimes feel as if I’m cutting teeth all over again in this adult world, but wonder if it was actually any less painful back then …..

#teething #family #grandparents #toddlers #adults #work #depression #demotivation

 

February 18th -Workout

1999:   Awoke at 6, prodding mum and whispering her name.  She kept telling me it was the middle of the night and that I should ‘go back to sleep’, but I didn’t.  The alarm eventually went off  and feeling bored now I shot up, turned off the alarm and put the radio on.  There’s no way she’s snoozing today, I’m wide awake.  I spent the day at Nan’s today.  We went for a walk over the town; I pushed my buggy the whole way there but managed to hitch a ride back.  Mum didn’t get in until 7 tonight and when she finally arrived to pick me up we had to go straight home.  I took a chocolate mousse with me which I was insistent on eating with mummy’s keys (she can’t drive then, we get to stay longer), but Nan persuaded me to use my fingers instead.  I don’t know if they were any cleaner than the keys to start with, but they were in a wonderful mess by the time I’d finished. When we got home we had to empty mums bedroom of all her furniture and later Dev arrived to lay her carpet.  I was a great help of course. At least that’s one roll of carpet gone. 

2019:  So this morning  work wanted me to go painting in my car. Yeah right. Then they said I could do lofts – without ladders. So I spent the day job hunting and filling in load of applications for factories, building and support worker. Need a job. Need my flat.

#toddlers #work #jobhunting #childood #mums #Adulthood #moving