August 12th – Daily Battles

1999: Oooh.  Help.  Think mum’s turned into an axe murderer.  She must have killed Postman Pat and his van and splattered them all over the bathroom wall.  This can be the only plausible explanation as to why the walls are now a bloody, pillar box red!  Even my mum would surely not spend time and money painting the bathroom to make it look like this?!  Forget the sunglasses; we need the eclipse viewers to go for a wee now.   And she was worried about the gold carpet!  Mum wasn’t in a very good mood this morning.  She went ballistic when she stood on the wet rug in the lounge, accusing me of weeing it.  If only she’d have smelt it before her paddy she would have realised it was juice.  We went to see Aunty Karen and Agal and we all went to the zoo a Colchester.  It cost nearly ten pound to get in and mummy claims it’s the first time she’s had to pay for a nervous breakdown!  I don’t know what her problem is, I was quiet happy wandering around on my own for 10 minutes or so.  When she caught up with me I was marched off to some office and made to say sorry to the lady.  The lady said it was okay, lots of parents get lost every day!  As we were leaving I heard her on the radio saying “the little boy has been found”.  Oh dear.  Someone’s mummy must have been worried. Agal and I had a lovely time and I fell asleep on the drive home from Karens and woke up to find myself at the dentist for my first proper check up. I’ve got all 20 baby teeth and the man says they are okay.  I sat in his big chair, looked at a big light and opened my mouth as I’d seen mum do a hundred times before me.  I got two stickers and so I gave one to mummy but I’ve since lost mine.  When we got home Nanny came round to examine the disaster area, or murder scene, and gave us some compensatory advice (Oh God, what’s mother going to do now? Only time will tell).  Eesa came over tonight and I played with Dandell and Dessica until half eight and then we were off to bed; Dandel and I in mum’s bed and Dessica in mine.  There was lots and lots of giggling until ten when I was transferred to my bed and Dessica into mummy’s with Dandell. Ooops!  We were trying to be quiet. 

2019: I was always wandering off especially in Asda. Id walk directly to the customer service desk just so I could get spoilt and listen to “Would the mother on Jack please come to Customer Services” be announced over the tannoy! No going out, getting lost or socialising today although I am keeping contact with the outside world on the x box an looking forward to Call of Duty Modern Warfare being released on 25th October

#toddlers #childhood #adulthood #mums #friends #zoo #colchester #dentist #teething #painting #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #xbox #CallofDuty

August 11th – Motorbike Freedom

1999:  We headed for the shops again today.  Mother Care first stop – to get the buggy temporarily repaired as for a full fixture they wanted 25 quid!  I thought it was great fun in there though, mum lost me several times, as I wandered around with my own little trolley looking at toys and wetting myself.  Once she caught up with me I was dragged out by a rather unhappy mummy.  Well how does she think I feel being dragged out from this paradise?  And what for?  To go to bloomin’ B & Q again, that’s what.  She’s changed her mind (again) overnight for the colour of the bathroom.   We had to stop mid shop, run outside and look around for some sort of legendry lunar eclipse. I don’t know what all the excitement was about – it just looked a bit dark to me.  Still, at least I got a break from the shop.  Back at home we  started dismantling the bathroom.  I was a bit worried when mum started taking the cabinet down off the wall.  I held her leg, whilst she stood on the chair, and said “mind head mummy”.  She said she would, but as soon as I let go of her leg the cabinet fell on her head!  Dev came round this afternoon on his bike, but we had to walk over to the park where I proceeded to wee myself twice (well if she’d only let me go on the bike……).

2019:  You’d think from my diaries I would have grown up to hate shopping but I actually love it. Especially clothes and shoes. No shopping today though as anxiety and low mood keeps me in. I loved motorbikes from a young age and would love to have a bike again now as that used to get me away from my low mood and let me feel free and turn my anxiety adrenaline into excitement

#toddlers #mums #childhood #adulthood #pottytraining #eclipse #MotherCare #B&Q #DIY #Decorating #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #motorbikes

August 10th – Shopping Blues

1999:  Nanny came round to help mum choose a new lounge carpet from the samples we got in Allieds.  Personally I liked the bright gold but they opted for a duller (more boring) colour.  What the heck, it will look more colourful once I get to work on it.  Off we went to Allied to order the chosen carpet then to B & Q and finally we went to Pizza Hut for a buffet lunch.  Unfortunately mummy noticed MFI just as we were leaving.  Then she had the cheek to wake me up after only five minutes kip in the car to drag me round Macro’s!  Well, we’ll see about that.  I put paid to her plans and we left after 5 minutes.  Sounds fair to me, 5 minutes kip = 5 minutes shopping. We went to Kim and Barry’s tonight and he took lots of photos of me on his new computer camera. It’s great as you can see the pictures straight away and print them but I had to keep on posing until they were happy with the shot!

2019:  And to think …. now I buy a phone dependent on the camera! At least now mum cant forget to put the film n. No shopping today. Still struggling to go out but at least Zof is home today. We have been looking at houses to buy in Norwich though but tied in to renting here until March next year

#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #toddlers #mums #grandparents #growingup #carpets #Allieds #B&Q #Pizzahut