August 6th – From Sleeping Through to Pushing Through

1999:  After breakfast we went swimming and I had a go without armbands but mummy wasn’t too sure, and if the truth be known, neither was I!  We had lunch with plans to catch the 1.25 train.  The next I knew I had rolled off the settee and had a piece of newspaper taped to my back and the train was definitely missed!  My friends called round this afternoon, inclusive of Jonathon who kept getting chucked out of the caravan by mummy but he didn’t take much notice, as she sent him out of one door he kept coming in the other one!  I found it funny anyway!  Pa decided to get the kite going as it was quite windy but he had to make a few adaptations – he changed the kite piece to a carrier bag!  After tea we went to the beach and Pa and I flew our Asda carrier bag which was far more successful than the kite.  I managed to fall flat in a puddle on the beach and nanny drove up a kerb on the way back to the caravan to which I said “oh, dear, dear, dear”.

2019: Mum text this morning to see if I wanted to go see The Lion King at a small cinema in Lowestoft.  I instinctively said No and then decided I need to tackle this and went over. I picked mum up and were going to have chips on the sea front but I decided on sweets and popcorn for the cinema instead. She had said she only had a fiver but then said she could probably stretch to chips as well. At which point I told her I am no longer two and I’m not gonna have a tantrum just because I cant have both and Id chosen sweets. Movies on a budget with 2 4 1 thank you Meerkats. The film was good and fitting as mum and I used to watch the 1994 version at least weekly when I was a kid. Only problem with watching it at the cinema is mum couldn’t make her excuses to leave the room when Mufasa dies.

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August 5th – High Days and Low days

1999: After breakfast we trooped to the launderette to wash clothes and bedding – and I thought we were supposed to be on our hols!  Pa took me to the park where I decided to jump in the puddles to splash another little boy and I ended up getting soaked.  Think I’ll have to go back to the drawing board on that one.  Mum came and found me with a pair of washed and dried pants but she stopped to stroke a dog and before she could get them on me the dog had run off with them.   We went for a train ride again today to Dungeoness but there was nothing there, so we got back on the train and went to New Romney station for coffee, cakes and a wee in the 20p slot train ride.  We caught the train back to Romney sands and disembarked nervously as we only had tickets to Dungeoness and back.  I’m sure I’ll get hauled over the coals if I get caught doing the same when I’m older.  Honestly, I could have ended up with a record for being totally innocent!  I went out to play with my friends and came in and led Pa out to “look”.  I showed him the poo on the floor and said “gog”, but it would seem Pa isn’t as easily fooled as I thought.  We went dancing tonight with Dylan the dinosaur, me complete with nappy as mums finally got fed up with wet clothes.  Personally I wish I’d never insisted on potty training to start with but I really thought mum would give up before the novelty wore off.  Lesson: never underestimate your mum!

2019:  Mood still low and anxiety at its peak. Forced myself to go to the gym as I know this can help but only lasted 20 minutes due to feeling so dizzy and faint. The anxiety forced me back home again but, as mum said, at least I gave it a go. I just feel safer indoors and am spending my time on x-box which at least is a distraction.

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