1999: Up at eight – the others were already up – even mummy! I had a yoghurt followed by cooked breakfast – I could get used to this but I suspect mum will have other ideas. After breakfast we walked to the shop and on the way Nanny’s shoe broke. See it’s not just me that breaks things. We had to buy some glue to fix it. Mummy bought me a colouring book, crayons, some sweeties and a kite, which Pa and I tried to fly with some success. We made it to the train station with just one minute to spare and travelled first class. We looked around the museum and Pa bought me a Thomas the Tank book and a train whistle. I did two wee’s in the ‘big boys toilet’ with Pa and was really excited. Now mummy’s wondering what she’s going to do when she’s on her own with me. No more girlie stuff for me Mother, I’m a big boy now. On the way back to the caravan I went on the slide and now I’m such a big boy I decided to go down head first on my belly. I left a wet trail. After lunch mum asked Nanny and Pa if we should go to the B-E-A-C-H in that silly spelling talk. She thinks I’m daft so I said “Beach” and off we went.
2019: I slept so well last night on Mirtazapine and am still groggy today. Luckily the doc signed me off for 2 weeks yesterday so I don’t have to go into work in my comatose state. I did go over to mums thought to borrow Marks trousers and boots for tomorrows marshalling stint. This evening I text mum and said I really wasn’t up to going in and she advised I shouldn’t but she hadn’t wanted to nag me. She’s good at leaving me to come to my own conclusions and luckily I did this in time to cancel. I hate letting people down but I have to look after myself
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