1999: Mum was already downstairs making the drinks when I woke up. We cuddled up in bed and had our drinks, then had to rush like mad to get out of the house by 8. I had to go with Edon to take her daughter Hayley swimming tonight. Mum collected me from the swimming pool on her way through from work, but I wanted to ‘dim’ and I let her know! Don’t think mum was too impressed nor were all the people who I barged out of my way. Mum ended up carrying me out and I ended up smacking her in the face. She told me not to ever do that again, so I changed it slightly and gave her a full arm swing slap. Oh dear. Don’t think I should have done that.
2019: Well it would seem my lack of emotional control has always been there. Glad to say I’m back in charge of my emotions again today but the break down made me realise I cannot ignore my Crohn’s or avoid the doctors or treatment as all that will happen is I will lose more work time and more of my bowel. Mum has chased up consultant appointment which is next week and I have realised I need to attend and start he next phase of treatment. Acceptance.com
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The Way it Really Is - Then and now 